whatshouldwecalleducators:

you know, when you first have to get there attention…and then you stare them down until they’re forced to back down.

It’s the last semester. Everyone has already repeated that same line a month ago, but it still hasn’t really sunk in for me yet. 

The only thing I’m feeling right now is exhaustion. Even though I only have one official class, spending the entire day at the school, writing lesson plans, researching activities, copying, cutting out stuff, homework…it’s all starting to feel overwhelming. 

There’s no time to breathe. Right now I’m really just living one day at a time, not even thinking about what will happen in a few months when we graduate. I used to worry about that a lot but I don’t have time for that now. Wake up, go to school, teach, plan, grade papers, come home, look up activities and ideas, write, sleep, repeat. 

But…seeing my students everyday, it’s worth it. Getting to know them slowly, finding out what they like and dislike, receiving hugs and random gifts, that’s worth it. 

Today I wished one of my students a happy belated birthday (it was over the weekend) and his smile after I said it…words cannot describe how I felt when I saw his face light up. This is why I want to be in the classroom everyday. 

Finally tried the body scrub my friend gave me for Christmas 4 years ago and I have never felt smoother in my life. Seriously, everyone needs to get some of this.

Body scrub, I mean. 

I never initiate anything because I always feel like I’m bothering people. It’s going to be a lonely life I guess. Oh well. 

This is just the beginning of a stressful but awesome semester. 

I can already feel myself go slightly insane. 

It would be nice if I came home one day and found a bouquet of flowers waiting for me.

I don’t usually quote lyrics but…

Man, it’s been a long night

Just sitting here, trying not to look back

Still looking at the road we never drove on

And wondering if the one I chose was the right one

Oh, but I’m scared to death

That there may not be another one like this

And I confess that I’m only holding on by a thin thin thread

I’m kicking the curb cause you never heard

The words that you needed so bad

And I’m kicking the dirt cause I never gave you

The place that you needed to have

I’m so sad, sad

• Eat healthy
• Buy fresh groceries, not those canned stuff
• Learn how to cook (for real)
• Bake more often
• Stop being lazy 
• Exercise 
• Prepare myself mentally for what comes after graduation
• Enjoy the present 
• Be more social